MY BELLY DOESN’T FOLD ANYMORE
I can not believe I can actually say those words. And to be honest I didn’t think it was going to be that big of a deal. But who am I kidding?!
It’s freaking amazing.
I didn’t give myself enough credit for making the life changing decision that gave me a second chance. So I made a promise to celebrate every victory no matter what
Ok, so when you get over a certain weight your abdomen does this inward fold thing. Normally it’s right where your navel is, it kind of aides in the belly fold. The ending result is this kind of stacking effect (hence the “2 stomach” term) Anyway….
I was sitting talking to the hubbs and I looked down and noticed my stomach wasn’t creasing. I was like “babe grab the camera… take the picture”
I’ve always been held back from some of the many joys of being a woman because of how I felt about my body. Even though I had people by my side and in my corner there are moments that you experience alone!
Those are the moments that crush your confidence, that feeds you lies and poison your mentality. Those are the moments when negativity invades. When you’re scrolling down timelines and you want to be happy for the success of others but can’t help but find flaws and compare everything.
When you’re laying up at night and your mind is going 5k miles and hour because you’re trying to figure out what did you do to deserve this?
You start coming up with things and making s*** up in your head.
Why do I have to be the one living in this body that doesn’t look as appealing to me as I want it to?
Why can’t I give birth and snatch right back?
I wonder what else they’re doing because there’s no way they lost that much weight in that amount of time and I haven’t lost anything in 2 weeks!
Those moments… that feeling.
It’s hard to feel good, sexy, and confident when you’re 100+ pounds over weight. It’s hard to wake up in the morning all energized and take time out to get all done up, when your feet hurt the moment they touch the ground from the pressure of your body. When your back is in chronic pain because its working in overdrive to hold up all your extra weight. When your lungs feel like they are about to explode because you attempted working out to get healthier.
After living in a depressive state like that for so many years it drains you. You tend to lose sight of excitement, you lose sight of joy, you lose sight of self love, and self care. You lose sight of YOU!
I got so low I gave up on everything. I asked myself “what else could possibly go wrong?”
Boy am I glad that I did
I felt so good in this moment. I felt accomplished, i felt sexy, i felt happy.
I don’t care how small, how ridiculous, how cheesy, how lame. At the end of the day…I made this change for me. Everything I had energy to complain about I will celebrate. Today was one of those days.
I made a video and everything…..
IT IS A BIG DEAL.