You attract the energy that you give off. Spread good vibes. Think positively and enjoy life.
I never thought fashion would be a thing for me. Especially after losing 95 pounds. But all I do is crave new style, new flare, new fabrics, and sex appeal since becoming this new me. This bawdy is giving me life. There is hardly ever a day that goes by when I don’t want to be cute.
Why is this important you ask?
For so many years I hated my body. I hated looking in the mirror, I hated trying on clothes, I hated shopping because nothing ever fit right. Even being a “shapely” big girl, I could never convince myself that I was happy in my skin or with the body I was living in.
Confidence had dropped beyond low. Motherhood had taken over, marriage was shitty, depression was high. Time felt nonexistent sometimes. Days bled into each other one after the other and I slowly started to fade away internally.
Comfortable, uncomplicated, easy. That was my dress style. Most of the time I wore leggings, big t-shirts, with quick and easy shoes, which were normally sandals of some sort. I hated standing out, I hated being the center of any kind of attention. I wanted to remain as invincible as possible.
The lack of attention I gave to myself only changed if my husband mentioned date night or if there was a particular event we had to go to.
I hated all shoes with heels over 4 inches tall. It took too much to wear shoes that required me to focus when I would wear them. For most of my adult life the majority of my clothing, my style, my character was BLAH. Because that’s how I felt.
One of the promises I made to myself when I started this journey was to love myself more, give myself more attention. Focus more on my health both physically and mentally and reenergize my soul.
Honesty and truth play a big part in the recovery aspect of this surgery in all regards and forms. Not just physically. Learning to love myself has been key during this entire process. Once I hit about 6 months post op my confidence levels shot up through the roof.
All of me felt good.
I wanted to try on anything I could put my hands on. All fabrics and types of clothing including multi piece and crop top outfits. I had a pair of boots that were cute but of course flat, well when I tried them with one of the new outfits I hated it. I wanted the shoes to be just as spicy as my outfit, so I ditched those and bought a new pair of boots with a heel. I lasted all day in those shoes and have been obsessed with all things fashion since.
I never really thought about fashion becoming an actual thing for me.
But, I like it.
No. I love It.
Fashion has allowed me to blossom into this woman that I am so proud of. Overflowing with personality, bright, spicy and full of life. I’m learning to allow myself and my environment to reflect my energy.
Take risks, especially with things that require me to love all over myself and take time out for myself.
VSG is a lifestyle. It affects every part of your life especially post op.
I am so glad that I awarded myself the opportunity to live again.