After the birth of my 4th child in 2012, I had a very difficult time losing weight. I figured it was just because I was getting older and my metabolism was slowing down.
I went in for my annual. And the doctor asked “why do you still have fat pockets under your neck if your daughter is 12 months? That shouldn’t be there.” I was like “
Over the course of 3 years I got tested for everything that I could think of. Thyroid, Genetic disorders, hormonal issues, blood diseases, environmental factors etc. Trying to figure out what was causing the disconnect within my body.
There was this one time in 2015 where I went to an appointment and was told “your platelets are extremely low, you might have a rare type of blood cancer. We’re going to test and send off your bloodwork and contact you when we get the results.” I thought I was dying for 2 weeks.
At the follow up for the bloodwork results I found out I didn’t have blood cancer
Hold up, What!?…
I just turned 30! Within weeks of each other you had me thinking I was dying from a form of blood cancer and now you want me to decide if I should basically sterilize myself, or take a birth control.
After 10 years of dieting, exercising, breastfeeding, and multiple lifestyle changes there wasn’t much improvement.
2019 was NOT the greatest time of my life. My body began to constantly ache from the pain of the extra weight, being on my feet all day at work, you know mom life wife life is 24/7 so there was always something going on. The marriage was going through hella trials and gutter valleys, I was so emotionally and mentally drained I didn’t care to find the motivation to do anything.
I gave up!
After a very hard night at home I cried….. I cried for days asking myself “What was the point of everything? What was the point of life at that moment? Why was everything so hard? What did I need? What was I missing?”
I was going through…..
I did a lot of self-evaluating and eventually came to the decision to start with me first. I took a couple of those internet test thingies, You know the ones that ask you questions like “who are the most important people in your life?” & “do you feel comfortable when…?”
I looked at the biggest flaw that I felt I had. The biggest issue I felt affected me the most. What could that possibly be
Because of my weight I developed a lack of self-love, self- worth and confidence. To be honest I don’t think I was ever taught or really developed those attributes growing up. But that’s another story.
Over the past 2 years, I discovered a lot about myself. Including the ability to understand childhood events that effected certain moments/changes throughout my life. I learned that self discovery is very important. Taking out time, care and love for yourself is a must. You don’t realize how important 30 mins can be, how a 5 min break can reset your entire aura. How telling yourself that you are strong, and beautiful can boost your confidence so much. How taking a chance with something “out of the box
Eventually, I made the decision to have bariatric weight loss surgery. I swear it was the best decision I have ever made.