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My body just won’t let me be great!

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Prior to surgery I use to tell the Mr. that one of my goals was to lose a whole butt cheek. I measured over 54 inches at one point and my hips spread as wide as 51 inches.

Honestly I can’t even tell you if that was the largest I measured either because there were numerous times over the course of 10 years that I dieted, exercised, or lost weight in some form or fashion. I tried to keep up with the measurements of my journeys over the years.

I have always had a big bottom half even when I was smaller. I got the “thunder thighs” label stamped on me in the 6th grade. I’m use to being thicc but things get heavy after while.

Large body parts cause body pains. I don’t care, I don’t care.

It was hard to sleep, aggravating to stand up for too long, difficult to buy clothes that fit right, impossible to run for any long distance, and super annoying to exercise.

2 years post op and I’m still having big ass struggles. I went to try on jeans today because I figured…it’s been long enough that I should go buy some actual jeans and not leggings. Although leggings have always been my favorites because they conform to any shape of body, easy to put on and take off they are super comfortable and very flexible.

As a curvy girl I have always struggled to find jeans…hell any bottom for that matter. I have a tiny waist, large hips, and a huge ass. I get it naturally… I swear its in the bloodline. Me and clothes have always  had a love hate relationship because of my shape.

POST SURGERY  

It didn’t take any time at all to see the changes in the way my clothes fit post-surgery. Within 6 weeks I needed all new scrubs and uniforms for work. I had dropped about 20 pounds and so many inches, I had already transitioned to flexible bottoms only outside of work because nothing fit. 😂

My original post-surgery body goal was to be in a size 10 jeans at the largest, I wanted to drop down to about 155- 160 pounds and get into a size small shirt. I’ve been in a small/medium shirt since about 9 months post op, and a s/m legging since about 8 months post op.

I’m sure I hit my goal in jeans a while ago, but I just never worked the nerve to go try any on until today.

It was entertaining if I must say so myself.

HERE’S MY PROBLEM WITH CLOTHES

My problem with clothes is that they are a waste of time when you’re on a post bariatric surgery journey. Remember you lose weight so fast and drop so many inches so quickly things will not fit for long periods of time.

I held on to a lot of my old bottoms for at least 13 months after surgery. What sense does it make to buy all new jeans, spend all that money to only wear them 1 time before you need to get a new size. Leggings and Jeggings are easy to replace, and they last a long time because they are usually made of some type of stretch material. They grow and glow with you, I love them.

I think I just threw away my last set of leggings I had from my big girl days. That’s only because they had gotten so loose they literally made no sense to wear. They were baggy all over and did nothing for my shape.

Anyway…

The first go round I put everything back. All the pieces that I tried on were fine on my legs but once I got to my booty good lordy. My ass was like HA…YEAH RIGHT!! The struggle was so real, I was in there dancing, jumping, and trying to wiggle my little self into those pants. It was a real work out.

I finally got on a pair- size 9 stretch denim they fit good, but they were tighter than I usually like for my comfort. I still have a good sized fupa hanging in the front of me as well so I have to take that into consideration when I’m buying clothes. I always get my bottoms a size up to accommodate the loose skin.

The last time I purchased “jeans” they were a 2XL pair of jeggings, this time I purchased size 10’s. I haven’t been in that size since I was pregnant with my first kid. I jumped from a size 7 to a tight 9 in 2 months. I had to get size 10’s and 11’s to be comfortable and this was in back in the day, so we’re talking about 18 years ago (he turns 18 in March).

Even after bariatric surgery certain things won’t change, they may just shrink a little or a lot. For me my booty was one of those things. I lost 8 inches off my ass and it is still huge, one of the good things about it is that I’m soft so it’s easy to maneuver and it sits well.

I was super excited about my size 10 jeggings- I felt very accomplished. I didn’t know what to expect honestly, my goal was to get into a size 10 jeans and I have achieved that goal. I guess my ass still gets me in my feelings sometimes because I get so close to fitting certain things and then boom my ass be like…”THINK AGAIN”.

I still prefer comfort over everything so of course I got a few leggings and yoga pants along with the clothing haul.

A girl likes what she likes😊

Where are the bariatric friendly food experiences in Atlanta?

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These experiences are everywhere as long as you know how to eat.

I created a whole food segment with the mindset that just because you had or are having bariatric surgery doesn’t mean you still can’t eat good and enjoy yourself with a night on the town. Good grub ain’t never hurt nobody. You just have to take it easy.

I was super excited to get up here and get a real good feel of ATL. I only imagined that life would be just as exciting as in Miami. The first year was a little much because of the whole Covid and quarantining thing. We had not gotten the chance to really experience much of the cuisine, or city life.

I didn’t want to lose the ability to enjoy dining out and living life. One of my goals was to experience as much life as I could after going through this life transformation. To do all the things I wanted to do but couldn’t because of my weight issues.

I have always been a foodie. LOL, with all kinds of food too not just fatty ones and sugary ones, but healthy foods, island food, international foods etc.

I love to eat, I love to cook, I love the camaraderie and memories that come when family and/or friends gather together. I am a mother of 4 picky eaters who love to eat good, so I have to practice my skill inside the kitchen as well as out.

I know that my food journey will be something I have to continue and practice for the rest of my life. I also know that I want to still enjoy that journey. Sometimes I might binge on some ice cream. somedays I might want a vegan burger, other days I might want a protein shake, and sometimes I might want a few fries.

The way I see it is…as long as I pay attention to when my body is full, I will be okay. As long as I stick to my 30 minute wait rule between eating and drinking, I will be okay. I always try to remember not to over indulge.

I was told by my surgeon that my new stomach size was 4 oz at capacity. when I think of how small that is I realize that I can’t over eat even if I wanted to. I would be puking before I hit the restroom.

What made me want to create a food segment?

Moving to Atlanta we knew there would be so much culture, life, and history to experience. I didn’t want to skip a beat. So when my husband decided to start working for Uber, we begin to visit a lot of restaurants across Metro Atlanta. From Locust Grove all the way to Marietta. We were visiting a lot of places. Some of the food smelled heavenly while others smelled horrid. Either way we wanted to try some of these places to see what the hype was about.

We all love getting out and having a good time. My husband and I have no social life…..I’m a covid and germ freak especially since working in the hospital. So, I have made it very difficult to start the process of stepping back onto the social scene. (I’m not gonna lie)

I was able to convince my brother and my husband (mainly myself) to have an outing at least biweekly. We all work insane schedules between work, family, and school; it is crazy difficult to get some actual adulting time in.

But, we’ve started with my brother as the spear header and have been having a great time. My brother has lived in Atlanta for a while now so he’s more aware of the hot spots and lit places. Plus, he created this list of things to do and places to go in Atlanta so we started with that. I really look forward to our outings though. It’s literally the only time I get to get all cute and done up.

Here’s the problem with the eating out thing…

The greatest challenge is my food intake of course. To really enjoy my dining experience, I must go in with the motto “A little goes a long way”. I always order way more than I can eat, but some places have large portions with no smaller choices available. Depending on the restaurant if I can’t make up my mind I order options, which means most of the time we take home leftovers.

Although I don’t drink a lot, going out for drinks is a much easier process. I gained control of the liquor method after my first 2 drinks following recovery. My first drink was around 6 months and then not again until after my 1 year surgeversary. 

I got my VSG surgery the same year we relocated to Georgia. No, it was not the plan but it was just where life took me. I was 6 months post op when we finally moved up.

It wasn’t until recently that we started making time to get out.

I need to remain as normal as possible

One of my biggest worries when I got VSG, was how much my life would change. Especially when it came down to my food and my well-being. Eventually after recovery I wanted to be able to return to eating and experiencing everything I love plus more. I didn’t want to lose anything but fat and bad habits.

Challenges are something I expect to run into for the rest of my life because of my weight loss surgery. That’s not to say that all challenges are bad. I’ve found that challenges no matter the state make me better as a person.

Trial and Error is a must

My trials and errors with food started very early on into my recovery. The dislike for all things sweet and sugary was on super strong. By the time I hit full liquids I was in such a state of despair I felt like the livelihood of my stomach had met its ending. And this was only about 2.5 weeks post op.

About a month post op I got permission to return to normal foods as tolerated. It was the as tolerated part that got me.

I had to learn what my body could tolerate and how much it could tolerate. I had to retrain myself on my body’s physical ways of telling me I’m hungry or full. I had to start PAYING ATTENTION TO MYSELF. I still have days when I eat something that’s so good I’m like “just one more bite!” then my intestines start biting me in the ass literally.

I know I’m not the only girl/person trying to maintain my sanity and navigate life after bariatric surgery. I figured why not review and share all these Atlanta experiences for my fellow bariatric folks.

Don’t limit yourself…..adjust!  Let’s Review Atlanta.

VSG and Fashion stepping out of the box

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You attract the energy that you give off. Spread good vibes. Think positively and enjoy life.

I never thought fashion would be a thing for me. Especially after losing 95 pounds. But all I do is crave new style, new flare, new fabrics, and sex appeal since becoming this new me. This bawdy is giving me life. There is hardly ever a day that goes by when I don’t want to be cute.

Why is this important you ask?

For so many years I hated my body. I hated looking in the mirror, I hated trying on clothes, I hated shopping because nothing ever fit right. Even being a “shapely” big girl, I could never convince myself that I was happy in my skin or with the body I was living in.

Confidence had dropped beyond low. Motherhood had taken over, marriage was shitty, depression was high. Time felt nonexistent sometimes. Days bled into each other one after the other and I slowly started to fade away internally.

Comfortable, uncomplicated, easy. That was my dress style. Most of the time I wore leggings, big t-shirts, with quick and easy shoes, which were normally sandals of some sort. I hated standing out, I hated being the center of any kind of attention. I wanted to remain as invincible as possible.

The lack of attention I gave to myself only changed if my husband mentioned date night or if there was a particular event we had to go to.

I hated all shoes with heels over 4 inches tall. It took too much to wear shoes that required me to focus when I would wear them. For most of my adult life the majority of my clothing, my style, my character was BLAH. Because that’s how I felt.

One of the promises I made to myself when I started this journey was to love myself more, give myself more attention. Focus more on my health both physically and mentally and reenergize my soul.

Honesty and truth play a big part in the recovery aspect of this surgery in all regards and forms. Not just physically. Learning to love myself has been key during this entire process. Once I hit about 6 months post op my confidence levels shot up through the roof.

All of me felt good.

I wanted to try on anything I could put my hands on. All fabrics and types of clothing including multi piece and crop top outfits. I had a pair of boots that were cute but of course flat, well when I tried them with one of the new outfits I hated it. I wanted the shoes to be just as spicy as my outfit, so I ditched those and bought a new pair of boots with a heel. I lasted all day in those shoes and have been obsessed with all things fashion since.

I never really thought about fashion becoming an actual thing for me.

But, I like it.

No. I love It.

Fashion has allowed me to blossom into this woman that I am so proud of. Overflowing with personality, bright, spicy and full of life. I’m learning to allow myself and my environment to reflect my energy.

Take risks, especially with things that require me to love all over myself and take time out for myself.

VSG is a lifestyle. It affects every part of your life especially post op.

I am so glad that I awarded myself the opportunity to live again.

Before & After VSG

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A little progress each day adds up to big results.
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270 ➡️ 175
Sleeved: 1/29/20
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The Woman In The Mirror After Bariatric Surgery

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The main thing I’ve noticed is how much I see myself now. I don’t mean just physically, but emotionally and mentally.

I use to dread walking past a mirror, I hated the image I saw.

It represented so many negative things in my life. Childhood trauma, emotional abuse, mental abuse, lack of self – worth and confidence. Lack of self- love and forgiveness. Self- esteem was almost non existent. My trust in people and society was totally twisted.

I never really understood the value of the words self – love!

I had to relearn to love myself, to value myself. My weight defined me for so many years of my life.

The biggest road block I faced was that image that reflected back at me.

Bariatric surgery helped me to put that image in focus!

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You get so use to allowing other people to control how you feel about yourself, about life, about certain situations and the choices you decided to make in reference to your life. You spiral into a whirlwind of depression and then you feel like there is no one there to help you out.

Then life itself rips you to shreds on the backend while you are already fighting so many battles on the front end. Advice from those close to you becomes little to none and unless you are dishing out your entire soul….. no one wants to hear anything. Everybody wants the tea but can’t stand to lend a hand or an ear. Letting people drain you becomes overwhelming until you shut down.

Confidence

Self love

2021

That smile tho’

I would always look at myself in the mirror and wonder if there would ever come a day when happiness existed. If there would ever come a day when I would love looking at the woman looking back at me.

Since having bariatric surgery I’ve learned to love, trust, and rely on me. Especially on the personal aspect of things.

When I talk about the reflection of self I tend to focus on me.

I am able to focus on me because I have an amazing support system between my husband and my children.

They make sure I get time outside, that I’m always laughing, they try to aide in me keeping my stress levels down. They are always constantly there and I love that. It motivates me to become a better human. I preach a lot of self love and self confidence to my children so I can’t not lead by example. This surgery was for me but bigger than me.

Everything has changed for the better and I am in love with it all.

Bariatric surgery is merely a tool. Literally you have to change your thought process, your eating habits, refocus your energy and everything. I understood the assignment and went in with every intention to come out and be different.

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These leggeings make an outfit themselves

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These leggings would’ve made a cute outfit all by themselves. 😂

Don’t worry about that emoji…ya’ll just here for the transformation 😂

Mind ya business, I was in my basketball player zone 😂💀🏀

So crazy I was like 10pounds heavier in the photo on the left at the time I took this photo. 90pounds ⬇

💜Thank You!!💜

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GRatitude and attitude are not challenges ; they are choices

I am so very grateful and thankful for this amazing year that I have had. Last year for my birthday I didn’t know where I would be or how I would feel. It has felt like such a long journey to happy. But, I finally made it and I don’t plan to go back. Lack of #selflove nd #selfcare played a huge part in how I viewed myself and my surroundings. #depression was crazy. My #VSGsurgery saved my life. Best decision I ever made.

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Thank You!

All of the texts, emails, phone calls, video calls, group chats etc. The #birthday love was greatly appreciated.💜🎊!

My journey isn’t for you it’s for me. For those who elect to have weight loss surgery it’s still a challenge. There is no easy way out. #wlssurgery takes a strong individual to make the decision and follow the lifestyle.

I APPLAUD ALL OF MY FELLOW VSG SISTERS AND BROTHERS 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

-February 21, 2021

Watch Me Shrink: My waist use to be 50 inches

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**Shrinking Sunday** talk about losing inches. My waist use to be 50 inches around. I am at such a loss for words. I am so glad that I have been keeping up with documenting. When I say crazy the proof is on the tape I’m still in shock with the fact that I actually went through with getting my surgery! I’m so glad I did. Having my VSG was the best gift 🎁 I could’ve given myself. Happy Shrinking Folks!!

Weight coming down 😁

#vsg #vsgjourney #weightloss #weightcheck #measurements #bariatricsurgery #sleeved #gastricsleeve #bariatricbabe #losinginches #shrinking #shrinkingsunday

💪🏽”90+ pounds gone in 13 months. My health is the best its ever been and I feel amazing”💪🏽

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Good Morning beautiful. We hope you have a great day today. See you soon. 💜 mommy and daddy

October 2, 2019 (Mirror Messages)

Here’s to another “I see you chachi” moment!🥂

When I tell you that I am my own goals, I am not lying hunny 🥰. I feel so good when I look in the mirror now. Everytime I see a mirror it turns into a full photo shoot. I took the photo on the left about 2 years ago. This was actually a sexy photo for my husband 🤣 go figure. I personally never really felt “sexy” or whatever and I always ended up looking goofy when I tried. “You are always your sexiest when you don’t try” the Mr. would say.

You are always your sexiest when you don’t try…

In all the time we’ve been together HE (keyword people…..HE) has never made me feel any type of way about my physical appearance. I appreciate him for that because people fall under the false notion that someone has to “give you confidence, when you don’t feel confident yourself”. For many years I secretly blamed him in a way for not making me “feel beautiful”, for not making me “feel sexy”, for not making me “feel confident”. I knew deep down that it wasn’t his fault or his job, but it was very easy to deflect my feelings onto him and then blame him for my sadness about it. I created and caused a lot of drama and crazy arguments because of my own personal issues within.

I wish I could say I felt the same confidence in the photo to the left as I did on the right but we know that’s not truly the case. I had curves for days, booty for days, thighs for days, and I was not at all sloppy. But, there were very few days in which I loved the skin that I was actually living in. I would try to categorize myself to ease the pain of accepting the fact that I didn’t love myself or my body. “Thick” became the new acceptance term. As long as I was considered “Thick” I didn’t view my size as a bad thing 🤨 not that it mattered because 🤔 even though “thick” would come from my mouth… pain, stress, pressure, and body aches would speak very loud internally.

Self confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings

before and after extreme weight loss

you are beautiful, you are worth it…

I will never get tired of saying how happy I am that I choose to get bariatric surgery. The entire process from the decision to have surgery all the way to the surgery anniversary was such an eye opening experience. It has affected every portion of my life. My VSG was my second chance at self love, self care, inner peace, and so much more. I have lost 90+ pounds in 13 months. My health is the best it’s ever been and I feel amazing. Another day in the book!💪🏽

100+ Pounds Of Extra Body Weight Makes you extremely tired

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First of all….wives check them photo galleries 📸 I didn’t even know this photo existed until 2 weeks ago. I was going through the hubbs gallery looking for old photos and came across this picture🤦🏽‍♀️😬. It was from one of our date nights back in 2019.
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#flashbackfriday



I remember being so tired and exhausted when he took this photo on the left.
I had just beat him in 3 point shootout 🏀 at D&B, and boy was my body telling me. You normally don’t think things like shooting a ball could make a person so tired. But when you’re carrying almost 100+ lbs of extra body weight it does take its toll on the body; on the lungs, on the heart, on the circulatory system, on the bones, on everything!
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fast forward to today and I can run laps in heels🤣🤣 I can wrestle with my kids, I can dance, I can jump rope, jump on the trampoline and so much more. Without feeling like I’m dying afterwards.
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Take care of your body folks!! You only get one.
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This is my journey😊

“SELF LOVE, SELF CARE, ME…. That was enough Motivation.”

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MO.TI.VA.TION

The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.

the general desire or willingness of someone to do something


Don’t ever let anyone make you feel any type of way because you chose to accept a tool that helps to change your life.
You get one body and one life!!
Looking at this I feel nothing but accomplishment. I 👏🏼AM👏🏼 SO 👏🏼PROUD 👏🏼OF 👏🏼MYSELF👏🏼.
Shame for what, embarrassed for what. LIFE! That’s what happened. For 10 years I struggled with my weight. Not all my life….but 10 years of it and that was enough.

shame for what?EMBARRASSED for what? Life! that’s what happened

2019 sparked a change in ME that I will never forget. I decided then that I would give into my own self doubts and help myself.
Body aches, daily pain, blood pressure issues, confidence problems, fatigue, stress, depression, the list goes on. These were some of my reasons to get #VSG
SELF LOVE, SELF CARE, ME…. that was motivation enough.
So Cheers 🥂 to all of you who have had the opportunity to have VSG surgery and cheers 🥂 to you all awaiting the date. It is never too late to choose you.


I AM MY FAVORITE PERSON NOW. I AM MY OWN GOALS, I AM MY OWN SUNSHINE. I LOVE ME SOME ME😊 That is motivation enough.

wow look at that: I Turned my shirt into a dress

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***Motivation Monday*** Come 👏🏽 on 👏🏽 now 👏🏽. I have turned this shirt into a dress. Lol!😁 I loovvveeee before and afters they always motivate me. I was around 245 then and I’m 185 now. 🎉

#motivationmonday
#vsg #sleeved #bariatricbabe #vsgbabes #beforeandafter #weightloss #wlsjourney #vsgjourney #85lbsdown #motivation

🏁Finally made it to Onederland🏆

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🗣I FINALLY MADE IT! 🎊WHOOO

This has been on of the hardest goals to reach. I actually met it a few weeks ago but I needed to be sure **hence the 2 scales** I FEEL AMAZING🥰! 77lbs down.

Nothing can really set you up in preparation for moments like these. You get to a point in life where you’ve given up on everything and you’ve reached a point so low that you feel like you can’t accomplish anything.

I can recall many times saying to myself “oh well, guess I’ll be fat like this forever”. There is no motivation or inspiration when your mentality is in a negative space.

There is no motivation or inspiration when your mentality is in a negative space.

Sometimes with everything going on in life, I fail to properly acknowledge my success. I tend to overlook my own successes a lot. When in all actuality every goal should be celebrated. No matter how small.

#welcometoonederland #vsg #onderland #goals

VSG 8 months later….77 pounds down

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Update: 270 ➡️ 193

I don’t even know where to begin….here’s the latest update. I am down 77lbs! It’s so crazy because I haven’t seen this weight in about 11 years. It’s been 7 months. I am over the top proud of myself. Learning patience while achieving these goals takes so much discipline.

And I am here for it. I am my own goals!! 💪🏽

#newhair #lovinglife #happy #healthy #vsg #goalsetting #goals

I lost focus and regained 5 lbs😭

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These past few weeks have been  crazy.🤯 For the first time since surgery I have gained 😢 I lost focus and regained 5lbs.

For the first time since surgery I have gained

Forgive me for the lack of updates.

Refocusing has been my main goal. I have 3 more pounds to lose to get back on track. These are my weekly lost files from the past few weeks. ***** Although I haven’t posted, I still keep track because ACCOUNTABILITY is a big thing for me.

I want to be transparent throughout my transformation because I know others are going through things as well. It’s hard….but I know what I have to do. This is something I wanted and I will achieve this goal💪🏽!!

#weighinwednesday #weightcheck
#vsg #sleeved #vsgcommunity #wls #weightloss #goals #gastricsleeve #motivated #beforeandafter #bariatricbabe

70 POUNDS GONE. What a difference 1 year makes

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1 year difference!!

This photo on the left was July 4th. I swear it still feels like yesterday. This has always been one of my favorite bathing suits and now I love it even more.😍 It always covered everything perfectly and was still cute.

I am in shock every time I do these before and after shots. So grateful I made the decision to change my life.

#vsgbabe #transformationtuesday #lovinglife #vsg #weightloss #bariatricbabes #wow #throwback