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Let Your Light Shine

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Let Your Light Shine so brightly that others can see their way out of the dark

I want to be the best inspiration I can be to others on the same journey. It’s a challenging road to travel but I’m proof that you can do it.

12 months 3 weeks 3 days post #verticalsleevegastrecomy

270 180b 90 pounds

I love me some meeeeeeeeee

”90+ pounds gone in 13 months. My health is the best its ever been and I feel amazing”

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Good Morning beautiful. We hope you have a great day today. See you soon. mommy and daddy

October 2, 2019 (Mirror Messages)

Here’s to another “I see you chachi” moment!

When I tell you that I am my own goals, I am not lying hunny . I feel so good when I look in the mirror now. Everytime I see a mirror it turns into a full photo shoot. I took the photo on the left about 2 years ago. This was actually a sexy photo for my husband go figure. I personally never really felt “sexy” or whatever and I always ended up looking goofy when I tried. “You are always your sexiest when you don’t try” the Mr. would say.

You are always your sexiest when you don’t try…

In all the time we’ve been together HE (keyword people…..HE) has never made me feel any type of way about my physical appearance. I appreciate him for that because people fall under the false notion that someone has to “give you confidence, when you don’t feel confident yourself”. For many years I secretly blamed him in a way for not making me “feel beautiful”, for not making me “feel sexy”, for not making me “feel confident”. I knew deep down that it wasn’t his fault or his job, but it was very easy to deflect my feelings onto him and then blame him for my sadness about it. I created and caused a lot of drama and crazy arguments because of my own personal issues within.

I wish I could say I felt the same confidence in the photo to the left as I did on the right but we know that’s not truly the case. I had curves for days, booty for days, thighs for days, and I was not at all sloppy. But, there were very few days in which I loved the skin that I was actually living in. I would try to categorize myself to ease the pain of accepting the fact that I didn’t love myself or my body. “Thick” became the new acceptance term. As long as I was considered “Thick” I didn’t view my size as a bad thing not that it mattered because even though “thick” would come from my mouth… pain, stress, pressure, and body aches would speak very loud internally.

Self confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings

before and after extreme weight loss

you are beautiful, you are worth it…

I will never get tired of saying how happy I am that I choose to get bariatric surgery. The entire process from the decision to have surgery all the way to the surgery anniversary was such an eye opening experience. It has affected every portion of my life. My VSG was my second chance at self love, self care, inner peace, and so much more. I have lost 90+ pounds in 13 months. My health is the best it’s ever been and I feel amazing. Another day in the book!

2019 taught me self love is the best love

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In less than 24 hrs I will be finishing the last chapter in one book. And starting a new beginning in another. I have always had a love hate relationship with this body of mine. 2019 taught me self love is the best love. 2019 is the year I decided to start over. Reset….begin a new step forward with nothing but positivity and confidence.

I can point out a million things wrong in every one of these photos but I won’t. This is me saying goodbye to old ways, negative energy and every hurtful thing attached to the person in these photos. I hid a lot of pain behind the smiles but I found new reason to want to do better. New reason to want to smile more, be healthier, and live the best life I possibly can.

I hid a lot of pain behind the smiles…


2020 is my reset and I plan to make it all worth it. This is my first transformation Tuesday of many to come. Hope you enjoy this ride as much as I will

Finally made it to Onederland

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I FINALLY MADE IT! WHOOO

This has been on of the hardest goals to reach. I actually met it a few weeks ago but I needed to be sure **hence the 2 scales** I FEEL AMAZING! 77lbs down.

Nothing can really set you up in preparation for moments like these. You get to a point in life where you’ve given up on everything and you’ve reached a point so low that you feel like you can’t accomplish anything.

I can recall many times saying to myself “oh well, guess I’ll be fat like this forever”. There is no motivation or inspiration when your mentality is in a negative space.

There is no motivation or inspiration when your mentality is in a negative space.

Sometimes with everything going on in life, I fail to properly acknowledge my success. I tend to overlook my own successes a lot. When in all actuality every goal should be celebrated. No matter how small.

#welcometoonederland #vsg #onderland #goals

the Doctor said “You look great”

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My follow up went great. I was finally able to get the dressings off! I was crazy happy about that. It was so annoying wrapping myself in plastic everynight before taking a shower. The Doctor said I looked great, and I can start testing out soft foods to see how I tolerate them. Down15lbs since surgery.